Writing a Short Film Script. 750 Words Saturday, 3 September 2011.

I'ma shave tomorrow

So I’ve been chatting with someone on Google+ and Twitter.

 She’s a screenwriter and lover of films, which in my book are both groovy traits to have.

 Any who, on Wednesday, actually it might have been Thursday, it was around that time of night where the day changes, she asked me to write an outline for a short film by the am, I took that to mean by 11:59 in the afternoon. I didn’t do this, I had other things to do and forgot to do it, then made up a bunch of bullshit as a pretty weak excuse. But she called me on it last night and said she’d give me an extension. I then asked her to pick a number between 3 and 15, she chose 14. I said 3 to 15 because I wanted to write a script longer the 3 pages but no longer then 15. So she chose 14 and I told her that I’d not only have an outline written up today, but also a 14 page short film script with nothing more then a vague idea of what I’ll be writing.

 So this morning I woke up, made myself some breakfast and a cuppa tea, sat and watched a little television, then turned on my computer. Watched a little more TV, then and only then did I open the text edit word processor. Its very basic but I write all my treatments on it because its just rich text so the file will open on any computer. I thought for a few minutes, then want down stairs to make another cup of tea, I thought a little more about how to kick off this script. You see that was my problem, I knew what it was about, but I couldn’t get it started, so I thought in reverse starting at the beginning and working my way back to a point I thought would be good to start with.

 Once I found that point I got to work and wrote out about 6 lines for the outline of act one. Yep six line, after then I took another break, came back and wrote another 6 lines, which was the first half of act two, I had another break and came bake to write the second half of act two, I took another break then came back and write act three in another 6 lines.

 My outline was done in 24’ish lines. Humm

 From that I wrote maybe half a page of text to act as the treatment, it didn’t really need to be that extensive as I was making this shit up as I went. And figured that for a short 14 page script half a page of treatment was enough.

 So I decided to try and space out everything in three and a half page intervals, act one being pages 0 to 3.5, first half of act two is from 3.5 to 7, second part of act two from 7 to 10.5 then act three from 10.5 to 14. And so I figured I’d have 4 sessions each 3.5 page long. Act one ended up being about 4 pages, so did act three. But thats okay. And I only got to 13.5 pages, not bad really, I mean when you think about I had no idea what I was going to write this morning wen ti woke up and now I have a 13 page rough draft of a short film script. Think thats the most I’d written in one day. Not including the outline and treatment.

 I did end up going back and forth as I was writing it, so I could make the pages I wanted for each of the four sessions. Like act one was a full page short, so I found a point and added more shit to it, I ended up adding a page and a half almost. Sometimes it just kinda flows.

 I’ll be the first to admit, it needs some work, especially in the dialogue, I think the visual element in the action are fine, but of course I write from a stand point of filming this stuff, so I’m not thinking about someone else having to interpret it, I know the shot I want to use and I write these in when I fill a particular shot will add to the visuals, I even chose to add focus point directions in this script because that how I wanted it to be. I know as a screenwriter I shouldn’t do that but as the aspiring director I feel the need to. Sorry about that.

 So there you go, I uploaded it to my online server with Apple so she could download and read it, don’t expect to much from this, because I see this script in my head as I write it, I even edit the film in my head as I write it, I practically know what shots I would use, closes up and and wide shots and particular setups for master shots. Thats just how I write. If I’m writing for other people I’d tend to write more descriptive text. And even though this script was asked for by her, I wrote it for me.

Emotional Connections. 750 Words Thursday, 1 September 2011.

What has become of me,

I am nothing compared to what I used to be.

I shadow of the man I was,

I am nothing.

But a dot in the plan of the great and powerful Oz.

Look at my Tri-Cept. What? i was bored and just took a bunch of random pics. Damn i need to work on my Bi-Cepts more.

 I tried. You gotta give me that at least.

 Anyway I think its time I wrote something here to keep the figures nimble. I need to keep them warm in case another poem like that one comes to mind, ‘cause you know I have to write down a bit sharpish.

 So, I’m listening to the Inception soundtrack, great film great soundtrack, Hans Zimmer is a genius. Yes I listening to movie soundtracks, I find them inspiring.

 Anyways today has so far consisted of waking up at 8:30am and walking 3 miles to the Job Centre, its the closest one. I sit for a few minutes talk about the previous few weeks, pick out a few jobs they have listed to apply for sign a piece of card then walk 3 miles back home to relieve my sister from Dad duty. So I take over Dad duty and that means I have to stay in and keep an eye on him. Oh wait I haven’t written or spoke about this before. I just now realized that, huh. I’m not going to start now by the way, not yet. Lets just say, he isn’t very well and need looking after.

 Wait, the Great and Powerful Oz. What the fuck was that about. It rhymed with was. Hey its my first poem. About how I feel sometimes, okay. Right now then where the crap was i.

 Ummmmm

 So how have you been?

 I don’t really care to be honest.

 I have been thinking lately. That part of the brain that deals with friends and family, that part that builds up a relationship weather it be personal or professional or romantic or whatever, that when you away from those people you miss them. That part of the brain, the part that tells you to miss certain people. Yea I’m not sure I have that. Could it be part of the old brain that makes us “Social Animals” the part that makes us reconnect with people we haven’t seen for awhile? It could be stronger in woman then in men as women feel the need to call people up at random and talk about how they are and ask “How’ve you been” Yea men don’t do that, but in me, its not existent. I never “Miss” people or places.

 Hey you wonna grab a beer sometime. Maybe watch a movie or just stay in and watch the Inception Blu-Ray?

 Am I weird for not “Missing” people. Family up North old work colleagues old friend from school. Or do I have an over active “Move on” part of the brain. I feel no need to phone people, or even talk to people unless I have something I think they’ll want to know. And then I just send an eMail.

 Does this make my Anti-social?

Or just build for adventure. Long trips into the dark heart of the Amazon or the African Jungles?

 Another thing, when I’m told that someone in the family has died, how should I feel exactly? Because when my favorite uncle died I was told “Jay, Uncle Jack died last night” my reaction to that was “Okay”.

 You might think its just some kind of delayed reaction but I really didn’t feel anything, then the day before the funeral ay the funeral or even now when I think about how he made me laugh as a child. I simply feel nothing, no lose or grief. I just hoped the funeral wouldn’t ruin my day.

 Am I cold?

 Yet I do feel, but usually only with women I’m sleeping with. That is a different an din my view a deeper connection.

 I thought at one point that I might be a Sociopath but after reading a book on Sociopaths I came the to conclusion that I wasn’t. But maybe part of me is. The part that deal with relationships. Maybe I just can’t connect with people in a way that makes me want to reach out to them.

 Research has shown that foster kids can’t form a lasting relationship with either foster or adopted parents because. The first 6 months of our lives are very important in this, we form an emotional connection with our parents, usually always the mother because they are the one that we spend most of our time with at that age. This interaction build the neurons in our brains that allow for emotional connects with people, if those neurons aren’t developed at that stage in our early life then it becomes much harder for us to develop an emotional connection with other people so those neurons never establish in our brains and we can’t get emotionally attached to people.

 Maybe somewhere in my forgotten past, those neurons just weren’t developed and sustained for a long enough period for them to become permanent. And maybe that is why I can’t develop lasting emotional connections with people.

 Now, I love my sister and her three kids (Two 16 and one 6) but I do because I now I have to, she’s my sister. My mother and father however, is a different story. To them I hold nothing. If they cry I feel no obligation to comfort. If they are in pain I feel no need to help. What crosses my mind is, if I do help will it stop me form doing something else more interesting.

 Does that make me a bad person?

 If those neurons aren’t developed enough because I never had that connection with my parent as a child, is it my fault that I can’t connect now. Not on an emotional lever but only because I know I should because we share DNA.

Apple TV sync sucks. 750 Words Wednesday, 31 August 2011.

Sometimes i hate you

Not sure where to start here, I was going to write up a Post production blog but its a little late so I just want to get to 750 as quickly as I can then get on to other less important but necessary things. Which I hate doing and could make doing it easier but don’t.

 So yesterday I wanted to sync up the latest iTunes download to my Apple TV, so I turned it on and waited for the Apple TV icon to appear in iTunes. Once it did I clicked on it and as usual I check the storage, 435GB out of 928GB, good, I selected the episode I wanted to sync the clicked sync. 

 Once it was done syncing I noticed that the storage had changed, it was now somewhere around the 34GB make. Somehow I’d lost 400GB of material on my Apple TV, I checked that everything was still selected and they were. Odd, but iTunes and my Apple TV have done this before, I now have to re-sync everything again, not fun, as my WiFi also hates Apple TV, if I select everything to sync up over night my internet basically cuts off and resets, stopping the sync this happens pretty fucking quickly so not much is synced.

 So today I plugged the Apple TV into the hub via Ethernet and things were better, I could sync much more in one go, but still only 8 TV shows at a time, and even then my entire internet bandwidth is fucked and I can barely use my web browser, even posting tweets is an issue. I mean its only a max of 140 characters, its file size is in the kilobytes and yet it won’t upload, kinda shocking really, that Apple TV can use up so much bandwidth leaving nothing else.

 Gotta wonder if the newer Apple TV is any better. My internet connect with ATV’s has been shit so streaming to it is never really an option, I hate it when a TV show stops after 30 minutes because the connection was lost, I then have to wait for it to re-establish itself and navigate to the point it stopped then continue. This is no way to watch TV or Movies. So I hacked my ATV (The only tech I’ve ever hacked) only so I could add an external drive, I 1 terabyte external drive.

You also have to wonder why Apple didn’t make there own external drive for it, I mean I don’t wan tot leave my computer running 24 hours a day or have to turn on my computer just to watch movies and TV shows through my ATV. Apple dropped the ball here. Well thats my opinion anyway, give us the interface i.e. the ATV with a nice internal drive or in the newer one, nothing, but at least give us the option to add external drives to it without having to hack it. I don’t want to stream my media over an internet connect thats as unreliable as mine is, its annoying to the point of never using again because its useless, if I do buy a new one I’ll be hacking it and adding the external drive because thats what I want. Oh and Airplay, yeah, not to interested in that either, mostly as I only know one other person who has an Apple TV so unless people are in my bedroom theres no point. And if I want to watch a video on my iPhone I’ll just watch it on my iPhone. For me ATV is simply for my TV shows and Movies nothing else, I have music on it but don’t listen to music on my Apple TV.

 And who’s to say that my syncing problem (Above) won’t happen with the new ATV.

 Anyway, I’ve been reading the ‘Guerilla Film Making Pocketbook’ again this time about film festival and marketing. Its interesting how much I already knew but didn’t know that I knew or ignored myself or something like that. Using Social Media and forums specialist websites and such, being able to provide people with all the information they need about the project. I’ll be pulling out my ‘Guerilla Film Makers Blue Print’ book after and going through that too. More to cross reference what I believe with what other have actually done. I know its most likely going to be a little different for me on some level but its nice to have a foundation to build on. And I like reading this stuff, so there ;P

 So I reached my 750. Bye.

Principal Photography. 750 Words Tuesday, 30 August 2011.

My mind is still taking to me.

Principal Photography.

 So your first day of filming has arrived, good for you. In the pre production phase you should have set up a call sheet, not sure I mentioned that, sorry, but you should have, basically it tells everyone on the film, cast and crew, when and where to be. Cast usually get a later call unless they have special make up to apply. You the boss should be the first one on set and the last on off set, set the example so know one can complain about working long hours, so long as you don’t complain.

 Talk to your crew and tell them what your going to be doing today, this is of course something you have already done in Pre, but its always nice to make sure everyone is on the same page, get set up and block out the shots, thats means setting down makers so the actors know when to stop moving, if there are moving, this also helps the focus puller, if you have one, ideally you want to be ready to go when the actor arrive. You don’t want them to have to wait around for to long, the cliched “Hurry up and wait” is something you should at least try to avoid, call your actors when your ready for them this includes any extras.

 Now we look at your shot list, something you should have done in pre, figuring out what ‘coverage’ you want. Coverage being the shots you want to use. For example, I’d start with a master shot, everything or everyone in shot playing out the seen, you could have radio mic’s on the actors but I’d just stick to a decent shotgun mic as any dialogue will better once you move in for the closer shots. Get the master, then move in for any mid shots, if someone is speaking or reacting try to shoot something. Its also good to know how your going to edit the scenes together, if you wrote the script you might have some idea how you want this to stitch together, meaning you just shoot what you need, making things move quicker, but this is best for seasoned experienced directors. Then after the mis shots, usually form the naval to just about the head, move in for a close ups and extreme close up if the scene demands them, they do show emphasis on dialogues. Also particular angle might denote certain emotions. In one script I wanted a man to feel alone so I thought of moving the camera backwards through a door way, by the end of the shot the man is framed within the door frame, reducing this space down to almost nothing and filling the rest of the frame with a wall. Again this is all stuff you should have thought of before filming started, but thats not to say you want come up with something else on set, or someone else for that matter. If someone suggests a shot don’t just dismiss it because that someone isn’t experienced or a lot younger then you, visualize the shot and see if it’ll work. You never know, it might work better.

 Get all the coverage you can in the time you have, this is why indie’s like free hand shooting, less set up per shot and more set ups in your day. But don’t rush it, make sure you get the shots you need, nothing worse then finding out because you rushed a shot it doesn’t work and you have to reshoot it, wasted time is bad for your own morale. As for takes, I’d tend to get at least 3, even if the first one was great. But don’t stop until you get a great take, good is ok, great is better.

 Take each day at a time, but you will need to know what is coming and if you’ll need any special equipment for it and if it’ll be there on time, make the calls don’t wait until your setting on your ass waiting for it. You have to stay on top of everything, this is way you need that producer and you need them earlier so your on the same page from start to finish.

 Principal Photography will pretty much run the same each day until your finish, if its a low budget film or a short and not very complex. Just wake up each day and get to set weather it be a location or studio, get there shot what you need, log and capture the days footage check your dailies make notes on pick ups or reshoots if any. If you have time edit a little so you have some idea of how if fits with everything else from that scene that you’ve filmed.

 Remember that you are going to go over budget, if you have one and you will run long. When calculating how long it’ll take to shoot, you might want to account for this by added, extra time, how much depends on what your shooting, but you need it, you’ll most likely run through that extra time as well, just expect this and get on with filming what you need. A good idea would be if you have a scene that isn’t important, but for whatever reason you want to shoot it, put it at the end of the schedule and if you have to cut it, cut it. This again is where rewrites help out again, any dialogue that might be needed can go somewhere else. Plan for this.

 Once you done, have a party.

 This isn’t that in-depth, mostly because at my level it’ll just be the same thing over and over until you’ve filmed everything.

Pre-Production. 750 Words Monday, 29 August 2011.

From my mind to yours

This is more for me then anyone else, and its a bit all over the place so forgive the uneditedness of it.

Last night, instead of writing it down, like I should have done, I had a chat with myself. In my head not out loud, that would be weird. I usually do this if I need to figure something out, because I can then visualize the situation as if someone is asking me. I seem to be able to deal out good advise on subjects I know about but can never deal with it for myself. Which is odd but there you go.

 So last night I asked myself a question from the perspective of an amateur film maker wanting advice of bigger productions, doing this also helps me set out a game plan.

 I then proceeded to detail everything I currently know about the process, starting with Pre-Production then principal photography then post-production and film festivals and distribution. That, at best you might be involved with this film for many years.

 So I should try to remember what I said last night, this mind chat lasted a few hours. I sometimes have these mind chats about science stuff black holes and what not.

 So Pre-Production, it always starts with the idea, that idea can usually be very vague, it might actually only be a scene that you now need to put into context. Once I’ve written down as much detail about this idea as I can I write up an outline, which is usually only 3 or 4 pages long and is very rough, but I try to get the basic plot and story with the hooks and twists and turning points. After that I write a treatment and I pack as much detail as I can into this, which is why its usually 20 to 25 pages long. Here I get to know my characters and their dynamics and relationships I decide on locations, or at least what I would like to have, I even throw in dialogue if I feel I need to, like if I came up with something that sounds good I what to remember it later, if there is an action scene I’ll just write ‘ACTION SCENE’ and not write anything, unless something happens in that scene that will affect the characters afterwards. I had an action scene in a previous script where a main character lost an eye and was tortured. So I just wrote that, “So and So is tortured and looses an eye” I then continue, letting it flow writing lots of detail even though I might not use any of it, its nice to have. I then look at the treatment and cut it up into the three acts, I then cut up those acts into scenes, and write them out onto index cards, and now I spend a little time sorting them out moving scenes around if I need to. I tend to write for the Hero (Protagonist) and neglect the Villain (Antagonist) so here is where I look at the film from the villains perspective, I now “become” the bad guy and decide what he or she is doing while the hero is doing his or her thing, I then add the extra index cards and update the treatment, which can grow to maybe 30 pages. Once the treatment and index cards are done, and I’m happy with them, I start the script. Having everything already sorted out, knowing where your going with the story helps me write and I can get it done a lot quicker. I’ll usually try to get between 5 and 10 pages done each day. If I write for to long I tend to get vague, stopping for a bit, even if its just an hour helps me continue writing at the same level. Also I try to write scene by scene rather then seeing the whole picture because then I just try to get to the more interesting bits quicker. And I always keep in my head that its only a rough draft and will be edited in rewrites later on.

Once the script is completed in rough draft I start rewrites, my first rewrite isn’t really a rewrite, as such, I check my spelling and grammar. Then I go through a check list of 7 things to sort out in the coming rewrites, Characters, Conflict, Action, Plot, Construction, Content, Practicalities.

Do the characters work, are there to many, as this will have little or no budget, its better to have less characters, so I hack the characters if one isn’t needed they are gone, only main characters that move the story along are immune to the axe, if a supporting character only has a few lines, I get rid of it and give those lines to someone else. Basically rewrites give you the opportunity to tighten up everything, once your happy with a “locked” script it could be several pages lighter. This isn’t a bad thing. And don’t for a minute think that your script rewrites are over.

This is where I’d bring in a producer, if its a short film or super low budget feature you might end up also being a producer, but its always nice to have an extra pair of eyes. Because now your going to break up that script into a the different locations, characters and film days, you need to know how many different locations your going to need because you only want to visit that location once, get everything you need then move on, you need to know what characters are needed for that location, and roughly how many days you going to need that location. This will all help you build your shot list. Do this for all the locations. I location manager would also be nice but you might not have the budget for one, so get out there and find what your looking for. Its best to visit locations around the time you intend to shoot there, take light and sound readings, this you’ll give to the DoP and lighting crew, you should already know the angles you want to shoot, so this is also a good opportunity to see if you can get the shots you want, never underestimate the value of getting as much information on a location as you can, the more the crew knows before they get there, the better. Check each location for access, and weather the neighbours will be an issue, it might be a good idea to produce a leaflet to inform the neighbours, if any, that you’ll be around, when your going to start and how long you intend to be around and and weather you might be making any noise. Check for some kind of “green room” a place to put the actors before and after set ups, a place where the crew can eat and relax, also if you having craft services (Catering) where will it go.

During this time you should have already sent out a notice for actors to audition. Its better to not have auditions in your house, find a place comfortable where you can put the actors before they audition, then see them one at a time, as it might be the first time for some and even seasoned actors get nervous, try to see if its the nerves that are coursing a bad performance its important that they feel comfortable, so you can get their best, give them a page from your script and give them the context of it. Then test the actor, ask them to do it again, but this time as if they are on drugs or perform a sad scene happy. Once you picked you call backs, try to put actors together, test out dynamics and chemistry. Take you time, if you have the time. You want the best possible performance for you film, and good actors will make you film better. So once you’ve picked them, I’d bring them in for costume and make up tests. If your going to use a HDSLR or a 16mm cine camera you want to know how they will look, if they have any blemishes that need covering, again the make up artist will appreciate the heads up before hand, and if the costume look right for the characters and if your using radio mic’s do they hid will. It better to deal with this now rather then on set where you’ll be wasting light, time and money. Get as much done before filming as you can, find the problems now and find solutions. You going to have problems most of the way through your filming, thats a fact of film making, so reducing the amount before hand is always a good idea. If you have special make up or gore then again, get this all sorted and tested, if you know you’re going to be close on a prosthetic then your going to want to know how it looks in the format your using, better now then in post. It’ll give the special make up people a heads up on how much scrutiny their work will be under.

Back to the locations scouting, knowing what shots you want and where they are going to take place will inform you of what equipment you need, jibs, cranks dolls etc. And if there will be issues. Like if you want a crane shot but a tree is in the way, can you get the crank in there? Will it damage the ground, tear up grass. Ideally you wan tot leave the location in the same conduction you found it, don’t burn your bridges, you might end up having to go back there for a reshoot or pick ups, and then there might be other film makers that want to use that location. Keep relationships good with the people that own the location, if you do damage something, let them know immediately and take photos for the insurance company. Also knowing where your going to film will help the script, so once you have details on all your locations your in for another rewrite, nothing extensive just more information for the crew and cast so on the day, there are no surprises.

Pre-Production is a lot of work and could take as long as the filming and post put together. When I was doing carpentry in collage I was told to measure twice and cut once. Think of film making the same what, you want to cover as much as you can before you start filming, find those problems and the solutions.

Ideally you want all your cast and crew in place long before you start filming, that everyone knows what they are doing, when they are doing it and where, so day one can be a good day, and hopefully that first day will go without a hitch, you’l need that good day or morale.

 Create a shot list, Location list, character list, costumes and props list, regular and special make up if any, vehicles, camera equipment, jibs dolls cranes etc. Set dressing if needed, craft services or where the nearest food outlets are and coffee shops are to each location. Make sure any neighbours are aware that your going to be there. If any stunts, that the stunt team have enough time to check locations and rehears, if any visual effects or going to be used, that the VFX team get to the locations to get anything they need, they might even want to be around when your shooting those scenes. And its a good idea to have an editor ready to go, once you start filming stuff its a good idea to have the editor log and capture all the footage and even start the rough edit as you go.

 You need to be as prepared as you can be before you start.

Next up, Principal Photography. 

Hallucinations. 750 Words Sunday, 28 August 2011.

I sleep Supine

The following is from ‘WiseGeek.com’ 

 “Hypnopompic hallucinations are often discussed along with hypnogogic hallucinations. Both of these have to do with hallucinations occurring as people enter or exit sleep. When people are just on the edge of sleep they might experience hypnogogic hallucinations. If a person is about to wake, he or she could have a hypnopompic hallucination.

 What makes hypnogogic and hypnopompic hallucinations different from dreams is that they tend to lack a story. Moreover the hallucinations may vary. People could experience a physical feeling, a smell, a sound, or quite frequently an image or sight.

 The image could be a simple line, dot, pattern, or it could be a full person, animal or other. It is important to add that whatever experienced, the perception of something not there can feel very real. Hypnopompic hallucinations might make people bolt out of bed, and then feel very disoriented, or they sometimes create the sensation that the person is paralyzed and cannot move.

 Hypnogogic and hypnopompic hallucinations are characterized by their “realness.” They also have a tendency to disrupt sleep. While they might suggest a person has sleep disorder, the hallucinations do not have much to say about the sanity of the person having them.

 In most instances these forms of hallucinations are associated with other sleep disorders, and often particularly with inability to get to sleep. This isn’t always the case. An interesting survey study done in the last decade of the 20th century collected data from a number of people to compare how often people reported hypnogogic and hypnopompic hallucinations. Data of nearly 5000 respondents showed that quite a few people had had at least one incidence of either of these sleep or waking disturbances.

 As published in the British Journal of Psychiatry, over 12% of the people surveyed experienced hypnopompic hallucinations and close to 40% had had hallucinations when falling asleep at night. A conclusion that can be drawn from the study is that of the two types of hallucinations clearly hypnogogic sensations are more common. Another suggestion made by the authors of the study was that hallucinations occurring just before waking were more likely to happen if people did have a sleep disorder.

 This last conclusion is perhaps important because frequent episodes of hypnopompic hallucinations may suggest poor sleep or sleep disorders that could be remedied. Yet, people may definitely fear discussing this issue with a doctor because they might believe a doctor will look at them askance. As previously mentioned, neither of these types of hallucinations indicates mental instability, and there is plenty of medical literature to back this up. On the other hand, such hallucinations really can suggest poor sleeping habits, and that can be dangerous to health on a number of levels.”

I have written about this before, not sure or can’t remember if I’ve written about it while doing my 750, but as it came up today in a discussion, I figured I’d write it up here. You maybe be thinking that the information above being from a website can’t be true because its from a website called ‘Wise Geek’. Well I’ve looked this up and have seen the same or similar details on other sites, and I’m behooved to agree with it. As someone who has experienced Hypnopompic hallucinations.

So from my point of view, what are Hypnopompic hallucinations. As its happened to me, my mind or brain wakes from REM sleep, but my body hasn’t, its still paralyzed. Our bodies are paralyzed during REM sleep to stop us from enacting our dreams, yes I know its doesn’t quiet work for everyone, I wake up but can’t move, can’t even open my eyes, then I’d get a ‘feeling’ that there is someone in the room with me, this feeling can be anything, remember its your subconscious mind at work, sometimes the image or feeling is vague other times its detailed. The first time I can remember in recent memory, it was a woman, she said my name but she was vague I details at all, the last time, I ‘felt’ a woman standing by my bedroom door, she was standing with her body facing the opposite wall but her head was looking towards me, she was dressed all in white, like a long dress, her hair was vague, blond I think shoulder length, she walked around my bed, remember this is all just a feeling, my eyes are closed because I can’t open them, the bent down, her feet were staggered a bit, she bent her knee a little and placed her hands on her thighs, she bent down closer to me the simply said, in a soft non-threatening voice “Go” thats when I woke up. Other times I’ve not heard anything and sometimes its a voice I recognize. The problem is, the feeling of being trapped, you can’t move and you have a ‘feeling’ that someone is in the rom with you can bring on feelings of dread and fear, and this will only get worse the longer your there. No matter how hard you try to move, you can’t, the move you try the more you dread being there, you feel like this presence is going to hurt you.

 I always saw this as just a bad dream, because the presence could never be real, I don’t believe in ghosts and spirits, and would never look at it in that way, so I always thought they were dreams. What someone told me I might have Sleep Paralysis I looked it up and discovered Hypnogogic and Hypnopompic sleep, and that you can hallucinate. Once I started to read about both I was reminded of many occurrences from my childhood and of course these latest events. So now I had a name for what was really happening. It wasn’t some kind of spirit or ghost, it wasn’t a dream, it was very real, in my mind anyway, I was awake when it happened and my body was truly paralyzed.

 Since learning about this, I’ve tried to induce it, with no success. I haven’t had it since then, February I think, and the reason I think it hasn’t come back is because I no longer have irregular sleep, its the one thing that changed, I get plenty of sleep and its as regular as a clock, as I always wake up at about the same time each and every day, give or take 10 minutes or so. Its so regular that I don’t feel like I’ve had a good nights sleep until I wake around that time no matter what time I go to bed, if I go to bed a few hours earlier I just get a few hours more sleep, but the out come is always the same, if I wake a few hours earlier then “Normal” I feel tired still, if I wake around that time, I’m fine and can jump out of bed wide awake.

 I can create all the causes of Hypnopompic sleep, irregular sleep, alcohol, sleeping in the supine position. But I can’t create the levels of stress or predict a lucid dream. Or I’d be having these hallucination more often. 

Nothing worth writing about happened today. 750 Words Wednesday, 24 August 2011

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No Money Dang it. 750 Words Tuesday, 23 August 2011.

LOOK AT ME!

So today I logged into my bank account because I wanted to put some money on my Oyster card, go to the gym and maybe, at some point this week go into the city to meet a friend over here from the States. But of course, as is my luck it hadn’t come through yet. I decided to wait until mid-day, just to be sure, I mean they have a lot of people to dish money out to and maybe it was just taking a little longer then usual. So mid-day came and went and still nothing, so I called them up and asked, I was told that my “Evidence” hadn’t been sent through. That means that my two weeks worth of job searching was signed off, but the woman I saw forgot to send it through. The woman I spoke to said she’d do it then and there but it would take three days, I’d have to wait until Thursday. She then asked it that would be ok, my response “What choice do I have” I then said it would be fine. So now I’m hoping that on Thursday I get my money. This does mean that I don’t spend any money until Thursday. Not that I have anything to spend money on anyway.

 I was hoping to hit up the city either tomorrow or at some point during the week, but then I’m not sure how long Scott is in London. Hoping I get to see the guy again before he leaves. Bummer really. I hate when shit like this happens. And it happens to me far to much, just when you think that your getting ahead, getting a pay check or will finally have some money to just have, it never seems to work that way, something always happens that means I want have that money or the money I did have will be debited away because some asshole somewhere fucked up. That reminds me I need to call BT again to see if anything has happened with the £60 the took will be given back any time soon.

 I’ve been thinking about the films again. As I do most days. I thought I’d post on Vimeo this ;

“I'm a guy who wants to make films, currently working more short film scripts then i know what to do with, and as much as i want to get cracking on these, and have my own ideas on how to go about doing that i would like to gain experience on the process, even just a little. To gain contacts and friends who are also doing the same thing.

 I never went to film school, and even if i could go now, i most likely still wouldn't, but thats another story. I am willing to work behind or in front of the camera for free, assuming of course i can get to you, as i have no car and right now i'm unemployed so money for my oyster card is an issue. But if i can get to you for the length of time you'd require me then i'd happily work for nothing, you don't even have to give me a credit, i just want to gain experience on making films.

 Once i'm ready to make my own films, i'll most like post here on Vimeo and on ShootingPeople.org. And if i have contacts by then i'll make those phone calls as well.

 I'm based in Muswell Hill in North London, the nearest tube is Highgate on the Northern line and Buses are 43, 134 and 234.”

 What I’m hoping to get is unpaid work to gain a little more experience, I mean I think I can make my short films either way so its not exactly needed, but getting to know people and making contacts I think is priceless in this industry. And if I do good work I might get more and at some point, assuming I’m actually good at it, paid work. Yayy. I could then, hopefully hang up my security uniform and cut up my security license, and work on films. Mine and other peoples. Well, thats the dream anyways. Live the dream.

 Lets me ask you this. What would life be like if we didn’t have dreams. And then follow them?

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All work and no play make Jason a dull boy. 750 Words Monday, 22 August 2011.

Closer

Well its Sunday again.

I wrote an outline for another two shorts. I’ll start printing them off and get started on re-writes. I want to write more about the stories themselves but I don’t want to put anything out there thats to revealing not until I’ve either made them decided that I can’t make them or come to a realization that I’ll never make them. Either way I still need to re-write them all.

I think I’l try to stay away form the writing thing for the rest of this post, because thats all I’ve talked about all week.

So, what have you been up to today, anything interesting?

Ah cool. That is interesting.

So anyway.

 I’ve written 8 short film scripts this week and tons of treatments/outlines I’m a good boy.

 Sorry about that I couldn’t stop myself, I really need to get back to the gym, seriously I feel like I’ll getting weaker. I love my Gym, its a great place to stare at myself and pose for 30 minutes straight. Ok that was a lie, its not really 30 minutes. More like 25 but who’s counting right :D

 Craving Fish ‘n’ chips

 Lazy - Deep Purple just started. I like this riff.

 Struggling to write stuff.

 Christwire.org is fucking hilarious get over there and look around. If your sane, have read a book that doesn’t centre around your invisible friend, have half a brain or have had sex have at least a 5th grade education you’ll love this place its filled me with such joy over the last 30 minutes or so. The site itself is backwards and the people that comment there actually believe everything it says, because they are all mostly backward bible bashing fun haters, but there are sooo cute and funny to read. You can’t read an article or a comment with out wanting to put just a little fact in there. One dude actually say, “We discovered AIDS 5 years ago” he must have been so proud. OF course the rest of the world has known since 1981. Which if you’ll permit me to say, was 30 years ago. So Science has known about the AIDS virus for 30 years, where as the Church only found out 5 years back. And people say they need to live in the now, in the present. I bet these same people think the world is only 6000 years old. Maybe thats there logic here. They realised that they need to bring the date forwards because of the way that calculate the passage of time.

 Anyway, its a site that needs to be seen to be believed.

 Now I have nothing else to write about :(

 Okay I just found out that Christwire is a satirical website, but still hours of fun and putting the world to rights ;P

Was playing about on Vimeo again, joining groups and adding my videos, I want to get noticed. My stuff isn’t great but I hope to be adding some good stuff soon.

 Birds singing outside my window. Sounds nice.

 Anyway, There are time when the view outside my window is quiet nice, just before the sun sets, I can’t see the sun, its on the other side of the house, but its light looks great on the sky and the building I can see. It looks nice.

 So yea I hope to be adding more films, and I use the word FILM properly. I may go to a local acting school to fine “talent”. Am-Drams might be worth a try I guess.

 And I think I need to reorganize anything on my computer, and on my external drives, for back ups. Everything seems to be everywhere and all over the place. Its annoying. Things need to be easier. I like easy.

 I need to make a film soon, real soon.

 Okay now I’m just trying to make up the 750 words thing. And I’m a little under 100 to go so.

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