Me old Mac...

It would seem my 5 years old iMac is becoming just a little asthmatic in its advanced years. And i'm sure there are plenty of hard nosed PC users out there, who think that an Apple Computer is an a front to computing, to them i say this;

I've only ever owned 2 Apple computers, my first was a Macbook Pro, which about a year ago i personally destroyed and my iMac which is now at least 5 years old. Before that i've owned countless PC's using the Windows operating System of its time, 95, 2000 and XP being the only ones i actually recall, and all these computers were just a little blah to me, i never found it a pleasure to use them and if they died i never felt the need to get them fixed, i just threw them to the PC graveyard and bought a new one. I the first years of PC ownership and internet dial up connections i always bought a Desktop PC rather then the expensive Laptops, which back then were in the region of £1,500 unlike today, where you can pick one up for around £250, and sadly it would be far more powerful then my old £1,500 laptop. But then after my first laptop PC i never went back to a desktop computer.

I remember when o brought a brand new Compaq laptop, as soon as i plugged it into the internet i got a virus, which took forever to get rid of, and it was the fact i received 4 viruses in one month, this happened very shortly after my first visit to the Mac store on Regents street, London. The next day at work (A Saturday) i applied for a loan online and by the following Friday had a letter in the post telling me that the money would be in my bank on Saturday, 1 week to get a loan, the quickest one has ever reached my bank and the last loan i ever applied for. That Saturday i brought, what had to be the most pleasurable computing experience i'd ever had.

I turned it on and within 10 seconds was able to use it, i was astonished at just how fast it turned on, seriously, i figured it would take some time to get used to the operating system, which then was OS X Tiger, and what a joy it was to behold, easily the most stable OS i've ever used to this date, more so then the current Snow Leopard, i'm hoping the up coming Lion can bring back the stability of Tiger. Within only a few hours of tinkering i was surfing my new Macbook Pro with ease. I know its a cliche, but Mac are just easy to use, which i think is a soar point with PC nut-jobs.

I'm not saying that all PC users are nut-jobs of course but, like Mac users there are a small group of PC users that give the rest of them a bad name, you can distinguish them quiet easily because as you mention that you use a Mac, they scoff and throw you a look of Contempt, Anger and Disgust as if you spontaneously just turned before their very eyes into a Leper, why i have no idea, i used to be a die hard Mac fan boy and would never hear a bad word spoken about Macs or other Apple products, but now, i see it as the most useless of arguments "Which is best PC or Mac" who really gives a fuck honestly, why do you care what system i use.

Most of the things PC users would say is something like "You just don't know how to use a PC properly" to which i say "What!" i can use a computer PC or Mac, but suddenly because i'm a Mac user i don't know how to use a PC properly, i never really understood what this meant, i think it might be because i'm using a Mac i haven't bothered to properly figure out how to use a Windows, as if it perplexed me so much that i bought a Mac instead because of its ease of use, so to PC users i think, only stupid people by Mac. ??????

The other thing i always get is, "You can't upgrade a Mac" which isn't strictly true but they are not as versatile shall we say as a PC, but then Mac don't really need upgrading, sure they are expensive but why do you think that all designers and video editors use Macs? Why, i'll tell you why, because they can handle the work load better then a PC of the same price. Even now they go on about how great Windows 7 is and the new i7 processors, which Mac use by the way.

I said once that which is Best doesn't matter, what does matter though is which one better suits your needs. I was then told by a developer that "It does matter because i'm a developer and i can't do my work on a Mac" to which i replied, "Ok so a PC running Windows better suits your needs." which still doesn't mean anything of course because he was one of the PC nut jobs.

At the end of the day i use a Mac because i find it a better experience using one then i ever did using Windows, i hate Microsoft and i love Apple, i'll always now and for the rest of my life buy and use a Mac, they look better then any PC out there and, in my opinion they operate better then PC's, i adore them and love using my Mac, but i can not stand people that waste their time arguing about which one is best, its a useless waste of time and energy that is put to better use being creative or productive else where.

Fuck the Rapture.... Who's gonna clear the floors...?

I have somehow found myself in a one sided verbal contract to clean the floors. Hoover and wash the wooden bits, every Wednesday.......... Who knew, because i as sure as shit didn't until earlier today when i was asked "Why didn't you clean the floors".

You see i live at home, and by home i mean the house i grew up in. Its not something i'm particularly happy with and would rather be else where, cleaning my own floors whenever i felt the need to do so knowing full well that if i forgot to do it one week the world would start spin on its axis at a slight 23% tilt (nerd) but i do get the impression that because i didn't do it today something bad is going to happen, well thats how it felt when i was asked "Why didn't you clean the floors".

With regards to my mother, she has never asked me to do anything, ever. She tells or orders and in some cases Threatened, she's a woman whom i have no love for, even though she brought me into this world i know that once i'm cleaning my own floors, my phone will never knowingly be connected to hers, in either direction, for i care not for what she is doing.

And example of my mother is needed for you.

Mum - "Yea, Jason is always borrowing lots of money from me and he never pays it back"

Having over heard this;

Me - "You what, when was the last time i borrowed money from you then?"

Mum - "Oh i don't know"

Me - "It was about 4 months ago"

Mum - "Yeah"

Me - "And how much did i borrow from you"

Mum  - "I don't know"

Me - "But your telling them (Her friends) that i borrow lots of money, well is was about 10 pounds"

Mum - "Ok"

Me - "And when did i pay that money back?"

Mum - "Pretty quickly actually"

Me - "Right, the following week, so don't be telling your friends bullshit about me"

This could of thing happens a lot, i often wonder what else she has said about me when i'm not around to hear it and correct her on it. She's one of these people that always feels the need to bullshit to be popular, or threaten to get what she wants, and as i live here for free i have to accept it but i can't wait to have my own place, i'm want it so bad. But being unemployed and having a credit card company chasing me every fucking day means that even what i do start working i'm still stuck here under her thumb, and once i'm working i'll be paying rent again, and still dealing with her bullshit.

More on her, I was paying £100 rent plus the Sky TV bill, about £130 maybe £140 each month, and as everyone back then was working my mother in her infinite wisdom decided to get a cleaner, this cleaner cost £30 for the month, I was paying £30 and my sister was paying £30, i was not told how much the cleaner cost, so my mother was getting £60 a month for a cleaner that cost £30, yes she was conning her own kids, nice. Anyway about a month after we stopped using this cleaner i was checking my pay slip and noticed that i was still paying for the cleaner, so the next day, when i remembered i asked "Didn't you stop using that cleaner a month ago" to which she replied "Yea why?", i said "Because i'm still paying you for it" and my mother in her normal grace replied with this "Its either you pay an extra £30 a month or you pay for the mortgage" and from that day on i was paying near £150 a month rent on the room i'd lived it my whole life. Now, don't get me wrong, £150 rent a month is great, especially in the area i live in, i'm not complaining about paying rent, but i just hate the way she goes about getting me to pay it. Before i was made redundant from that job, i was paying £200 a month, and my mother would normally ask for it in her usually fashion "I need that money cause i'm going to Brent Cross on Saturday" Brent Cross is a shopping centre, or Mall if you prefer. It seemed that instead of my rent going to actually rent related items, i was just paying for her to shop, i would say that her paycheck, which was a damn sight bugger then mine was spent on "rent stuff" but she earned way more then enough to do that, and still have a substantial amount left over, but then we'd get tons of clothes delivered from catalogues every week. She'd blow all her money on clothes she never wore and i gave her money to continue once a month.

She seems to think that in order to get something from her kids, she need to con us or threaten us to get it.

"Do the floors" not "Can you" and sometimes she adds a "Please" at the end, but not in an asking way, more like its just added a a matter of course to make it seem like she's asking "Do the floors, please" the 'please' always has an air of disappointment about it.

Its not wrong to assume that i have thought about simply killing the bitch, which i have, thought about.

You lend her money, she'll give it back when she can, you borrow money from her, the next day she's asking for it back.

Her whole life revolves around money, and in the past i've hated her, now i just don't care, i tolerate her because i still live here.

I sound like some petulant child still in some angst, and maybe i am, but i'll known this woman for 33 years and she never changes. And the older i get the more obvious it becomes.

Words and Language...

So a few days ago i made a video called 'Books' where i asked people to tell me what the most important book they own is. One such wise viewer of that video said "The Dictionary" although she did hold up the 'Oxford American Dictionary' and it might not really be my place to say but American's, those living in the United States of America, don't speak American, they speak English, some better then most, but still, its English. But thats besides the point, her reason was simple "WORDS" without which we couldn't read or write. They do however spell Colour without the 'U' which would of course mean they can't spell Colour.

I have been thinking about this for the last few days, Words, and the fact i have a book here beside me written by a man who is a lover of words and language, Master Stephen Fry, the book, The Fry Chronicles (Which is responsible for the Chronicles part to the Blogs Title).

There was a smaller book sitting next to it, a fiction related to a TV show i enjoy when its on the television, I was halfway through it at this point, or i was a month ago and just never really go around to finishing it, or any other book for that matter. I love books, and i'm not sure i could make the transition to reading from a digital screen a permanent thing, although i'm fully aware that at some point in the not to distant future, i might have to, which, when i think about it makes me sad, i can't tell you exactly why it does, it just, does. Why should the medium matter as long as the words and language are there. I guess i like to hold the book, feel the pages, smell the pages, i know this all sounds very odd, that i seem to be fondling the book in some perverse way, i just like reading from a book rather then a monitor (Ironic as it may seem that your reading this from a monitor, because i put it there).

Anyway, i picked up the TV book and finished it in a sitting, which kind of makes me wonder why i didn't finish reading it when i started a month ago, a few hours of reading and it was done. And so were my eyes, tired and a soar i couldn't continue to read. And i have to admit, i was getting some what tired of the book, i'd rather watch the show, thanks. 

So today, after my daily ritual job search and online applications, sending off my completely underwhelming CV (Its no wonder i'm still looking) i made a cup of tea, and picked up The Fry Chronicles. Fry's use of words, his intellect and his humour are all very apparent, and work brilliantly together. Seriously Fry needs to write more, maybe not so much about himself, although it is a good read, but maybe some fiction, just a thought.

I so enjoy reading this book that it compels me to write, again. I have an ambition to be a writer, weather thats screenplays or novels, i like to write, when i'm writing, but i clearly do not write nearly enough to get better at it. Reading Fry's book just brings home the inability i have with words. I'm not trying to write something of any meaning or pomp, i'm not trying to be elevated above my social or educational standing, i just want to be taken seriously. No matter what i write weather it be drama, horror, thriller, script or novel i want readers to not only enjoy it, but enjoy my words and my language to which i would hope bring a certain credibility to what ever it is i'm writing, even if its a Star Trek Spy Thriller (Seriously).

This was written because Twitter was overcapacity. @Fiskyjay.

Books and Digital Paper...

I made a video today asking people what is the most important book they own.

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Now, this could mean many things, One person said the Dictionary is the most important book to Mankind, someone else said a treasured diary they wrote when they were nine years old. Its interesting to see what different people value as important when its something so random in life, like Books.

Personally i love books, like i say in the video, love the smell, to touch them i feel more connected to the words that way, I don't own an eReader and, for now at least i don't want one, not even the iPad, I find it hard reading large amounts of text on my computer screen let alone on an iPad or Kindle.

I think book are important, not for the same reasons they were 20 years ago before the internet became the worlds biggest library or Amazon the worlds largest book store, to read a book back then took effort, you had to go outside and look for it, which made the reading, and finishing all the more relevant, a true search for knowledge.

I hope that Books, Paper or hard back never die out, although i have no illusions that they will someday be gone, no more printing, everything will be digital.

Lets take a look at two other mediums, Music and Film. in the last 20 years both have become so much easier to create for the common man or woman.

First music. Back in the day when you bought an album or single you knew that someone else liked it, because other wise it wouldn't have even been printed in the first place, but now, anyone can produce a single in their bedroom and with the power of the internet they can share it with anyone, even getting it sold in iTunes and Amazon.

Film. Kind of the same deal really, you had to write the film, then find the money, and the time to get it made, usually only if a hollywood studio liked the script, which is why modern classics are hard to come by. Now, Youtube is flooded with every tom dick and harry with a video camera, me included, who thinks they have what it takes to be a movie star or film maker, but if you step back and take a real look at this stuff, people like Niga Higa, Smosh, The Station, its all the same shit vomited out every month or so, they have the technical skills to throw clips together and add music, but then its not hard to learn that stuff, but the one thing they ALL lake, is the ability to tell a good, involving story, none of them can do that, their characters are 2 dimensional and the dialogue is best left out of this altogether. Their videos are on a level of entertainment of Nickelodeon but with swearing. Low attention span bullshit, but of course all their "Fans" love the stuff, and no one really give criticism, why? if you do your labeled a Hater or Troll.

My point is this, Books or the written word is second in story telling only to the spoken word. Once all or most books are digital, whats to stop everyone thinking they can write a book, i say this even though i'm trying to write one, but then i'm under no illusions on weather or not its going to be good, i might like but i might be the only one who does, i get that, but due to if genre, i can upload to fan sites and hopefully other can enjoy too.

But whats to stop those who think they can write the next War and Peace, i can se the future of books, becoming as easy to distribute as music and film is now, so all those future digital books store will be flooded with rubbish, blocking our view of the real books. I hope that when this happens, there is a digital bargain bin for those books so the real books can remain in sight and not get blurred by the bumf.

You've been Raptured...

Or not.

Sooo, someone somewhere figured out that the Rapture (Biblical shit) would came on the 21st of May 2011. That was yesterday, yet here i am, sitting at my Mac writing a blog for you to read. Or not as the case maybe.

I myself am an Atheist and the most important book i own is 'On the Origin of Species' by Charles Darwin, not because i'm some kind of Evolutionist and follow Darwinism to the letter of that book, but because it gives me the best explanation of our world and how we got here, as does Physics which gives me the best explanation of how the universe works. The most popular phase uttered by scientists is "I/We don't know". Its true, they don't have all the answers, but at least they are looking for them. And not just saying, "Well, i don't know how it works, so God must of done it".

In Science we have something called the Scientific Method (Which is a body of techniques for investigation phenomena, acquiring new knowledge, or correcting and integrating previous knowledge) and Peer review (which is a process of self-regulation by a professional or a process of evaluation involving qualified individuals within the relevant field) both of these processes mean that a Scientist can't just publish whatever they like and have it be credible or acknowledged by their peers. Or us the amateur reader.

But it would seem that within the circles of Religion, if you find something new within the Bible or other religious texts, you can pretty much say whatever you like, when you like, i'm not even sure there is some kind of process a new find would need to go through.

Some guy "discovers" that the Rapture is coming, yesterday, and it isn't sent out for verification by his peers, its just put out in the world, if the internet wasn't around would we of even known about this, my guess is no, "The Internet gives everyone a voice" which, for the most part is a good thing, other times, like this, not so much. Surely this kind of Religious find, given that still 90% of the worlds population believe in something (A God) should be regulated, and verified before people start telling their children that the end is coming, lets not scare the crap out of idiots without at least the Leader of which ever Religion it is looking at the details of this find. All this does is further validate the fact that Religion is bogus. Sure lots of people find comfort in it and are "Good" people because of it. But i'm not and i consider myself to be a good person.

I need proof of something if i'm to believe it. Scientist look for proof. Religious people simply have Faith that God exists with zero proof. To me the Bible is no more real then Lord of the Rings, and i know which one i'd rather read.

Vlogging...

Is VLogging ever going to be a normal thing?

Will we see more and more people VLogging, not just on sites like Youtube but on the streets, are more and more people going to be walking around there neighbourhoods carrying and camera, holding it out in front of them.

Will it ever be socially acceptable to talk to your camera?

Who knows right, i figure that more people might do a kind of video diary, as that is a concept we've seen for a long time, we're living in a time where almost every second is being documented and world happenings are being covered not by news crews anymore, but people who happened to be there when it happened, take the recent tsunami in Japan, all that data being gathered by normal, everyday people, who were caught in the middle of it, these kinds on happenings are no long being missed by scientists who get there to late to record data as it happened, the people with their phones, most of which record in HD now, and or video cameras again most all video cameras record in 1080 HD giving researchers unprecedented accesses to "on the spot" data.

Example, a friend in Japan, Josiah was in the middle of a Video chat when it happened, the technology we usually take for grainted these days as a matter of course is now becoming a scientific research tool, we record the happening, upload it to youtube with a useful tag, and all news networks and scientists have to do is enter a few tags into Google or Youtube to get flooded with data. Awesome.

Will we see more people making a Video Log of their day at work, or the weekend or their holidays, and i don't just mean a family movie, i mean someone sitting in front of their computer for a few minutes talking to us, the world.

And, this is something that accrued to me while i was working security at Burberry, we have to give a verbal report of the Day or Night at the end of a shift, of course management never get to hear this, so why can't this report be a Video Report or Log of that shift, this way the next shift will see and hear what went on in the previous shift and so can management, if they feel the need to watch it. In ten years will i sit down here and say "Personal Log, May 21st, 15:20 hours. So far the Rapture hasn't happened, but your know, its the waiting thats going to kill me".

Think about VLogging in this way, 7000 years ago, documents were on stone tablets, sometimes they broke and we didn't get the full text. Then papyrus and paper a medium that better stands the test of time, but still, now, people of the future will be able to watch us, speaking to them from the past, History documented by millions of people all over the world, different perspectives and view points.

Ronin

The film not the masterless Samurai's of feudal Japan.

Thats the one i mean :D

Anyway, i'm sitting here at my computer a little bored when i decided to channel surf the movie channels to see if anything worth watching was on, and as usual, nothing worth watching was on, you pay a premium with Sky to receive these movie channels, theres like 20 of them, and there is rarely anything worth your time, sure the classic channels and film four sometimes give you a viable option, but the main Sky Movie channels, mostly all shit, mostly all the time.

Ronin was released in 1998, it cost $55 million to produce and earned the studio $240 million in revenue, WHAT THE FUCK, you mean an American film, with a good script, dialogue, acting and a good story actually earned nearly 6 times its production cost. Well stone me.

Why is it that when a film like this comes out, and does really fucking well at the box office, which lets face it means nothing with regards to weather a film/movie is actually any good, all it tells you is how many people went to see it and how much money it made. But its clear these days that the Hollywood studios don't really care if the product is good or not, but only if it makes a lot of money.

Good film always make a decent amount of cost, weather it waits for the DVD/BR release or not. I don't mind the usual summer blockbuster bullcrap, they usually have decent action scenes and as long as you don't take them to seriously or think your going to see Gone with the fucking wind your in for an entertaining evening. Its just so much of this shit comes out every year you wonder if studio bosses are even listening to their audience and not just their bank balance.

Lest use an eMail conversation i had yesterday with a friend about Zombies. He sent me an eMail about 'The Walking Dead', he didn't like it. I didn't find it that bad, but my point is this, Zombies are now, the in things, we have Zombies coming out of our ears and the quality is just getting worse with every Zombie film, The Romero classics, are just that, Fucking Classics, and they shall always be Classics, not so much the more recent Romero Zombies film, but Night, Dawn and Day, fucking classics. WEre seeing them everywhere and i'm getting kind of bored with it, Shaun of the Dead could be the start of all this, a good Zombie based movie gets released and now everybody wants to be a fucking Zombie, arms raised head cocked to one side, glazed look in their eyes, walking slowly towards to grunting of croaking "braaaaaiiiiiiiinnnnssssss".

Hollywood will always just vomit out what ever is popular because they know people will go see it, money money money. Its the Gordon Greco school of film making, only make what you know for sure people will want see. Lets pick another small, almost indie Robert DeNiro film 'Insomnia' underrated and yet another great performance not just by DeNIro but also by Robin Williams, who's serious acting is always far better then his comedy acting.

Hollywood it would seem don't like taking a chance on a new idea very often, but when they do, we see the kinds of films that should be coming out of Hollywood.

Yes, Hollywood makes more money then all other film industries. Yes Bollywood does make more movies the all other industries. But fuck tons of money and 800 movies a year do not mean your going to make a classic. look at Avatar, it will never be a classic, it'll always remain as that movie thats on the tele around christmas and new years, it'll be watched and forgotten, quickly. I've seen it once and since then i've had no interest is seeing it again. And everyone i now who has seen it and likes it always say the same thing when asked "What was so great about it" they always say "The CG was fucking awesome". Yes, yes it was, the CGI (Computer Generated Imagery) was outstanding, but CGI does not make a good movie/film, Toy Story 3 is a prime example of this, 100% CGI, but it also has and outstanding story, and interesting characters, that alone should tell your that that, is what makes a good movie/film and that is what will make it an all time classic. Toy Story (1,2,3) will live on as classic films do to the stories being told and the great characters. Not the great CGI. The same thing goes for 3D, and if you read my shit, you know how much i fucking hate 3D. But at least CGI serves a purpose in cinema. But CGI should never be the selling point of the movie and always go unnoticed.

So to recap. Films and movies should rely on good scripts, good characters, and a good story. And the big hollywood blockbusters should only ever be regarded as mindless entertainment and never be seen any other way and never try to be anything else, for they are just a fireworks display. look at the shiny shiny.

Legs...

I entered a Hipstamatic contest, to win something like 8 Awesome Hipstamatic t-shirts.

This is the photo i entered;

I do like this pic, not just because i took it, of my legs, but because using Hipstamatic can turn any half decent picture into a work of art.

The T-Shirts i could win;

I would look fucking awesome in these shirts, i really would :D

Go HERE and underneath the photo, you can "vote" via Twitter or Facebook. Basically you tweet it or like it (FB)

SO please go so i can look awesomesauce this summer in my new t-shirts :D

Reply to an eMail from MBNA...

To Whom it may concern,

Email Reference Number: ********

I've tried to "log in" and, as i can't even remember registering an account online, that didn't go well so i figured i'd reply to this eMail and hope that this reaches the correct person.

As of September 17th 2010 i have been unemployed, and right now am struggling to find work, my current bank balance is approximately £153, which must pay for utilities and living expenses, i receive £130 every 2 weeks from my Job Seekers Allowance (The last was this Monday 16th May), so as you can see my financial situation isn't great.

In the eMail (Below) i was told that i've missed the last 3 payment, but my bank receipts say i paid £100 on the 2nd of April. Yes i'm fully aware that my minimum is £150, but if i did pay the full amount i'd be filing for bankruptcy.

At the beginning of the year (2011) i had two rather long and as it turns out pointless conversation with a representative at your office, we discussed my current situation and he tried to help me out by reducing my minimum to £100 a month, but that would have turned the then short term problem into a very long one, a problem i was hoping to avoid by finding work, but as that hasn't happened it soon looks like that problem is going to happen sooner rather then not at all. As it stands i am still spending most of my free time, when not cleaning this house to please the owners, looking for work and as i've said, it looks to be far more difficult then i first anticipated.

Of course once i start working again and gain a monthly paycheck i will continue to pay my monthly bills, usually in the past i've paid more then my monthly minimum, why? because i am so desperate to pay it off, i NEED to clear this credit card because in the 8 or 9 years i've had it, 90% of that time has been nothing but stress i just don't need, in my personally view credit cards are EVIL in the wrong hands, and the wrong hands are 99% of the worlds population. Its true.

Anyway. Your records should show that i've always paid my bills, while i've had employment, and i've been unemployed 3 times since having this card. Your records should also show that, 2004/2005 - 2008 - and now, your records should show that i couldn't pay the full amount, but every time i gain employment i was back on form and paying my monthly due.

Now, this is the longest i've been unemployed, and my financial situation is the worst its ever been. I stopped my Payment Protection Cover a year ago, because, in the past (2004/2005 - 2008 unemployment periods) they didn't help, i was paying them 50 - 60 pounds a month and they were refusing to help me. So a year ago i decided to terminate my contract with them. I mean why bother giving them money if they can just refuse to help me when i need them most (My views on insurance companies are not for this eMail) How was i to now i'd be sacked later that year, i was having a great year at work.

My job search continues as i fall deeper and deeper into a depression due to my financial situation, i have plans, in fact its a two year plan, but with no monthly income that plan is pointless, which in turn feeds my decent into a depression, and this credit card situation isn't helping. 

At the start of the year, when i spoke to a loverly man about this at your offices, twice, i was told, by him, that i've been a great customer who always paid on time and usually more then i needed to. All i ask for now is time. Time to find work and put this problem right. Of that you have my word. If you choose to take it.

Over the last few months i have thought about breaking the law to make money, because thats just how bad i need to clear this card. As of yet, i have not.

Sorry for the length of this message but i felt i need to explain as much as i could. Weather or not you listen, agree, disagree or ignore it, is up to the reader(s).

Thank you.

Yours Sincerly

Jason Fisk

I'm a Nerd [01001110 01100101 01110010 01100100]

Yes i am.

Last night i spend at least some time trying to figure out how number and letters (Upper and lower case) correspond to Binary, one's and zero's.

Binary is a set of 1's and 0's in blocks of 8. And each character corresponds to a number, like this;

128 - 64 - 32 - 16 - 8 - 4 - 2 - 1

So from 00000000 to 11111111 there are a total of 256 combinations.

All numbers in binary begin with 0011 then its just a matter of making the number 0 to 9 with the next 4 digits. 1 for example is 0001 and 5 is 0101. So the number 9 would be 00111001. First 0011 to till us its a number, then 1001 8 + 1. for double or triple digit number, or more, you just at another block for each individual number. So 194 would be 00110001 00111001 00110100. first the number 1 then 9 then 4. A large number then, 123,123 would be 00110001 00110010 00110011 00101100 00110001 00110010 00110011. 7 blocks because 00101100 corresponds to the , so a number between 1 million and under 1 billion would have 2 , in it.

Letters, start with 0100 or 0110. 0100 = upper case and 0110 = lower case letters. Using the same system as the number, all you need is to make between 1 and 26.

A = 01000001

a = 01100001

Z = 01011010

z = 01111010

Of course special characters have other combinations, but i haven't looked into them, and i'm not likely to, in fact i'm done thinking about how Binary corresponds to numbers and letters.

Reasons why we should weaponise Darwinism ~#1~

Yesterday i finished my eleventh week of going to a Gym. Thats 3 times a week for 11 weeks, so that 33 Gym sessions. Plus 2 bus rides for each session, to and from the Gym, that 66 bus rides, and until yesterday 'd never had a problem.

Yes this blog is going to be about dirty urban pikeys (British Slang).

So i waited at my bus stop as i usually do, this part was, of course as boring an uneventful as it usually is, which is fine by me as i'd just finished a kick ass gym session, relaxing is on my mind for the next few hours, and sitting on a bus ignoring the world feels great right about now.

I use my Oyster card to "pay" for my ride, £1.20p and i move to the seat i usually sit at, second row on the right past the back doors, window seat, not very comfortable, but then none of them are. I start to relax.

Then about 5 minutes into a 30 minutes bus ride three "Pikeys" get on board, already i can till these guys are gotten be asshole because they are taking forever to deal with the process of paying, i'm still unclear if all three actually paid.

Anyway the first, who it would appear is the "Alpha" of the three walked to the back of the bus with his fishing gear took one look at me and said "Alright mate, i know you, you used to chase us around the flat about 10 years ago" I had no idea what the fuck he was talking about, the others seems to follow suit, i have no idea weather they were just putting me on or what, but some details like where this supposedly happened were correct, The flat behind my house. But ten years ago i was 23 and not chasing kids around the flats, as he didn't use my name i got the feeling that he may of recognised my face, but confused it with someone else's. He was drunk after all, at 7pm.

The three pikeys sat around me and started to talk to me, so i just went with it, i didn't know them, then and i didn't want to know them now, but what could i do.

After much loud, loutish behaviour the two bigger one, not to say they we're any bigger then me, just bigger the the little third guy, anyway, one of their big ass bottles of Stella went flying across the bus, hitting some poor guy on the head, at this point i'm just hoping that the other people on this bus don't actually think i'm "with" them, they fall onto another poor guy sitting across from us, he quickly gets up and moves away, Next, after the two twats hug and make up, and i mean that literally, the "Alpha" sits back down next to me and slaps the poor guy in front on the head, the guy who was hit by a flying beer bottle, and why did he get hit, well because he was black and these fucks we're clearly racists.

When they first sat down i didn't think anything of it at first, i thought it was just bolster, three fuckwits trying to act "hard" on a bus, i was told that, because i'm a "Friend" i'm ok, but if i were black i'd get shot, the little one made his hand into a gun shape and flicked it up as if he'd just fired it.

The poor guy infront of us, took it like a man and with dignity, clear he has more dignity in his little toe then either one of those pikey wankers, but as he got up to leave the bus the heckled him, "Don't take it personally mate, its not your fault your black, just go home and hang yourself with that rope" it was at this point i wished that i either missed this bus, they didn't get on, or i had the balls and or skill to take them on, all three at once.

After that things seemed to chill out for a bit, then the dumb fuck on the back seat simply decided to break a seat, he pushed, with his legs on the back of it and bent it forward, why, because his mate ("Alpha") was sitting in it.

They seem to like causing trouble, and damaging public property because they can and because no one, me included, tills them otherwise, if we did what would happen to us? most likely a ride to a hospital.

People like this DO NOT FIGHT FAIR, even though the "Alpha" might step in first, once the fight has begun, the other two will jump in, especially if the "Alpha" gets into trouble, then it no longer a for fight. So, how do you fight these people? easy, you fight dirty and you try to end it quickly. Then leg it. The "Alpha" may start the fight, but all three will jump in, then when its over and done, they seem to get confused. Later, they might say "I kicked your arse" "I beat the fuck outta you" they seem to forget quickly that it did take all three to finally kick your arse.

After this, i started to think about Darwinism and if we could weaponise it, we wouldn't have these pikeys around for long.

Someone commented on my Vlog yesterday thats it most likely Socio-Economic, poor families are more likely to break the law, and at least enjoy doing so. Maybe that true we are products of our environment after all.

And after this what did i want to do? Kill them, i even planned it out. Does that make me like them or worse?

Bright Ideas...

Its kinda weird where ideas come from, I was sitting here, at my computer, when my light goes out, along with every other light upstairs. I go downstairs to the kitchen and open the larder and start emptying the thing of caned food and squeezy sauce bottle and a pack of spaghetti, this made me hungry, but i had light to fix. I pull down the fuse box cover and see one of the switches on the circuit breaker is off, the one marked Lights, the other switch marked Lights was still on, this i knew before i'd even seen it as the downstairs lighters were fine. I flip the switch to on, close the fuse box cover and replace everything i took out, again it all made me hungry.

As i closed the larder door and started back up stairs, an idea hit in me in the face like a warm fart.

A couple, she's watching her shows and he is in the kitchen, there is an obvious tension between them even though neither one has said a word. Then everything turns off. A fuse is tripped, but as the fuse box is wired wrong, due to one of his friends, instead of one single fuse tripping, the entire box goes, everything is gone, no power. Good thing its the middle of the day.

They try to ignore each other, but are eventually force to "talk" as he doesn't know what the heck to do with the fuse box, and neither does she (Of course thats a little odd but necessary for the story to move forward) the talk starts off angry, we get to the route of the problem with lots of shouting and arm waving, but eventually the truth comes out and they reconcile the problem.

The friend who "fixed" the fuse box is coming over to help him move out his stuff, which is all boxed up and ready to go. He lets in his friend, and before he starts to take the boxes to his van, he goes to the fuse box and flips a switch, the power is restored, the TV and lights come back on, the couple look on, realising how easy it is to restore the power, and that something so simple to fix, had gotten them to talk and reconcile.

Now i need to end this, i could just end it there, leaving what happens to this couple up to the viewer;

He stays;

"Thanks man, but i think i'll be staying right where i am", the couple hug.

He goes;

"I still love you, but maybe we should start over, slowly" he agrees. "How about dinner and a movie, this Friday" She nods.

Bright Ideas;

Its Easy On Paper...

I guess when we are at our lowest point we all can feel kind of worthless and useless, not being able to pay the bills to keep a phone line open, receiving letters from your credit card company till you that you NEED to pay X amount or that your in arrears by X amount, as if you didn't already know that.

All we can do is simply get on with it because if we let all that stuff get us down, it'll be difficult to get ourselves back up again.

Its easy to fall and really difficult to get back up, thats the way they like it, it means your always in a state of "Oh Shit" , they'll get you a card and let you spend spend spend, then when your least expecting it, they kick you in the balls.

They could at least have a protocol for people who lost their job, especially in this climate, but no, "You signed a contract that said you'd pay each month" yeah, well when i signed that contract i didn't expect to loose my job, did i?

I guarantee that once i finally pay off my credit card and ask them to never contact me again, i'll still get letters in the post asking me if i want a new shiny credit card with 0% APR for the first 6 months.

I can't pay with nothing, but then they'd rather i paid them instead of paying my other bills.

I'm still looking for work, and unfortunately it'll most likely be in Security, which i hate incidentally, but beggars can't be choosers i'll take whatever comes my way, but nothing is coming my way. Over the last 6 weeks i've sent out tons of applications with an attached C.V. and i'm getting nothing back, no replies at all, which again helps to make me feel like i'm worthless, like just a number on my Security licence.

What can i do, to A, get back to work, and B, Get the credit card company off my back for a bit.

Right now i feel like a bag of shit, worthless, festering insect infested pile of crap. I would almost literally do anything, i say almost because i'm not quiet sure i want to brake the law, but thats not far off, trust me.

Do you ever feel like you wished you could go back in time and change things, make different decisions?





We live in a world where, the lower you are on the totem pole of life the more you have to do for yourself, there is no one out there who is going to do for you, if you want something you have to make it happen, which means lots of hard work, blood sweat and tears good old fashioned hard graft and positive thinking, YOU CAN DO IT kind of attitude.

- What do you want - 

- How can you get it - 

- What do you have to do to get there - 

Right, now shut the fuck up and just do it.

unfortunately having a credit card company on your ass isn't going to help none.

Right then, you know what to do,

• Get a job
• Clear credit card
• Save money - at the same time, prepare material
• Get your own place, your own space
• Make lots of videos, one ever few weeks, be consistent
• Buy new Computer and Camera
• Make better videos, become Youtube partner
• Make a future in film
• Make Fisk Film a brand name

See how easy that looks on paper, making it happen won't be easy, but it is doable, all you need is focus, drive and motivation.

Why Bother...

Last night before i went to bed i started to think about my life...

And i came to realise that, its utterly pointless right now. This isn't me telling you all (Not that anyone actually reads this Blog, i mean who guess a fuck about me, right?) That i'm going to kill myself, suicide isn't how i roll. But lets look at my life right now.

• I'm Unemployed, and finding it especially hate to even get an interview.
• I have a credit card company (HSBC) phoning me everyday asking me to pay what i owe, even though i don't have any money.
• I have a little over £100 in my bank account.
• Because i can't spend money on unnecessary things i sit indoors all day, unless i'm out looking for work.
• All my cousins are Married with kids (Two things that do not appeal to me at all) and seem, for the most part to be happy.
• I'm nearly 34 years old and i still live "at home". Yes dear readers, "AT HOME".

My self-esteem is incredibly low right now, I've never really been in a position, financially, to get my own place so here i am, living in my bedroom/office/living room and i fucking hate it.

Sure i could blame countless people for this but, lets face it, there really is only one person who's to blame. ME.

Over the years i've made countless bad choices, and i seem to keep making them, if at some point in the past i was able to get my own place, i know that i'd be that friend who is always asking for something, and being a nuisance to everybody. Like my cousin Carl and i think of him as a wanker.

I'm not exactly sure why i keep making these bad choices, people around keep saying things like, "All things happen for a reason" or "Something good will come of this" and they all don't really know this but i think of them as being quiet idiotically optimistic.

Lets look at the kind of person i am, stupid and idiotic comes to mind quickly, but then already this year i've helped to individuals who needed it, and an Ambulance. My First Aid training finally came in handy, i found myself taking control of the situation and getting on with it. Did i know these people, No, did i care about these people, No, but it was the right thing to do, right?

You could argue that if i wasn't sacked in September those two individuals might not have gotten the help they needed. Bullshit. In the first instance, a "Plastic Policeman" arrived only minutes after i did. And the second i was the fourth person there, sure the other three had no idea what to do, but one was on the phone to the Ambulance service, they though i was a cop because of how i dealt with the situation. My first aid training took over i guess.

Sure it makes you feel good, but it gets my nothing, helping people does get the credit card company (HSBC) off my back does it. And to be honest, if someone paid me to leave them alone, i would have, without thinking about it.

I have this weird memory thing, i'm able to compartmentalise things easily, to put them out of my mind and forget them, maybe not on a subconscious level, but my conscious mind, its very easy.

As for my apathy, empathy or altruistic tendencies. If it doesn't effect me personally or physically i can easily not care. For example, My Dad has Lung Cancer and Liver Cancer and is currently on Chemotherapy, and i have zero feelings on the matter, i can pretend to care so the people i live with don't think i'm a complete sociopath, but to be honest, i don't, when i was told i felt nothing, sure you say that i was so shocked i became emotionally numb, but then that was 5 months ago, you'd think that by now i'd feel something about this.

I'm not especially close to my parents or my sister, but i can play the Son, Brother, Uncle when the situation calls for it, i tell people around me, weather they be friends or work mates that i do care, but if/once i move out, and live on my own i know i won't call them, my sister will call me, but i won't call her. My two "best mates" two guys i've known for 16 or 17 years, two very different people, who by the way don't know each other, two very different sides of me. I never call them, and rarely contact them.

The First. The mate who trains me at the Gym, calls me everyday we go to the Gym to make sure i'm still going, he knows my money issues and i guess is just waiting for me to say "I can't afford to go today". If not for the Gym i'd rarely see him.

The Second, The guy i met in college, we used to hang out all the time, but now, our only point of contact is via eMail, even though a FaceTime (iPhone4) would be easy we don't do that. 

I feel like i could live alone the rest of my life sometimes, and if i had a purpose the loneliness would not be a problem. Over the years i've had many girlfriends, and each of them, save one (Stacey) has gone the same way, we met, we have fun, i'm happy she's happy, we make out have sex and after a few weeks for this, yes a few weeks, its just about the sex, there is no emotional connection anymore, the "magic" is got and after a few more weeks, i'm bored and quit the "relationship". I've never said the words "I love you" and meant it (I never said it to Stacey) i guess i could argue that i've never met a girl/woman who has been fascinating to me yet (Except Stacey) someone exciting and interesting. Or maybe i just bore easily?

I have no direction, things i want to do cost money, which i don't have, that would be making videos for the internet, short films and the like. But i need a new Mac and a proper camera to compete with the Tier 1 Youtubers, also i need my own space to film, and a crew, a few people as extras and crew members. None of my friends and family are interested in helping me out. Friend two might be but lives far away and it would cost him a lot of time and money to travel to me when ever i wanted to make something, which would, ideally be every two weeks.

Of course i have another choice, and that is to rob drug dealers, which is always going to be a viable option.

Tier 1 Youtuber's make shit videos [VLG Day 172]

Todays Vlog;

At the end i make a Protein shake (Whey Protein, Strawberry Cream flavour)


JulianSmith
http://www.youtube.com/user/juliansmith87

Mr. Timn in Candyland
http://youtu.be/h0pC8-R33zk



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So what have i been doing since the 25th of April...

Short answer, not much...

I've applied for quiet a few jobs and literally had no replies, nothing nada zero zip and if extremely frustrating to not even get a "Sorry but the position is filled" or "You application is not required at this time" all i get is an empty mail box, so to speak. I sent another off yesterday, as a reply to an eMail i received from TotalJobs.com, i applied online, wrote a cover letter my C.V. and uploaded my C.V. If i do not receive anything buy Wednesday next week, i'll accept the fact that i'm not even getting an interview. Which sucks ass.

I haven't sent out so many C.V's in my life, in the past i've sent out a few and always gotten interviews on most of them, now i'm getting nothing, and i hate it, because it makes me want to bitch and moan about it, it makes me fell useless and unwanted. And i'm getting pretty desperate, my bank account might as well be the back of my couch.

I've had more ideas to yet another video series, a new character, but of course, and i've said it lots of times, i need a new place, my own space to film what ever when ever i like, I really need my own place, and soon, but, of course i need a fucking job first.

Being unemployed does a afford certain way of life, by that i mean you learn not to spend money. I live in a family where 3 out of 4 adults (Me, Sister, Mother) spend money if we have it. If i get 200 quid my sister and or mother will follow with "So what are you going to buy me" usually when you hear that its just a joke, not in my family, if you have money  they expect you to spend it. I remember a few years back i was able to save £700 into a savings account, but after a few birthdays i have less then 100 left, they don't seem to care much about weather you can afford to spend it or want to spend it, if you don't you'll get "You have all that money and you can't even buy me a decent birthday present". they all put as much pressure on you to spend what you have until its all gone then you get "Then why did you spend it all on crap then" or "Next time, don't worry about us".

I can easily live with very little money, i'm not really into the extravagances of life, I only really need things that keep me alive, like food, water, electricity and a roof. The wants, would be a new Mac, and to make better videos a new camera, but these are things that i can save up for, as i don't need to spend lots of money, i should be able to save up pretty quick. Clothes aren't really a big thing for me either, i mostly wear Jeans and t-shirts with converse high-tops, in-door a t-shirt with shorts, no big brand names and absolutely no designer labels (Except the Burberry suits i had as a uniform when i worked with Burberry) so i have no real need to spend lots of money.

I've usually given myself "spending money" every month, a set amount of money i can spend on whatever i like, usually around £100.

All i need now is a freaking JOB!!!!!!!!!!!